Love, Marriage, and Children...Continued

I'm back to continue this topic after about 19 months. I asked the question, "where am I now?" Well, as of December 29, 2011 I will officially be divorced. During ten years of marriage, I definitely lived and learned. I'm actually in a good place, but still trying to wrap my head around the whole idea.

What happens when happiness turns into hell? You believe your in love, get married and it's not quite what you thought it would be. You try and try, work hard on being a better person, try to cater to your spouse and nothing seems to work. It's time to call it quits for me and my husband.

Now, I'm going to take it somewhere you might not expect. I can't sit here and bash my husband, well I can, but I won't! I'll disclose my part in all of this. When I got married, I wasn't truly in love with my husband. I honestly settled for him. A brief history on my life is this;

As a child, I had self esteem issues. I always thought I was a "funny looking" kid. I spent most of my life hanging out with my older brother and his friends, so I've only had 2 boyfriends in my life and married the second one. My first boyfriend I believe I was in love with. I still can't seem to shake him, but he passed away in May of 2000. Met my husband in December of 2000 and we married October 2001. Way too fast if you ask me now. So because he was someone who payed me the least bit of attention, I went along with whatever he said. Was I truly in love with my husband, I really can't say.

I'm at a place now where trust is an issue. I don't believe what most people have to say. I believe most people have an ulterior motif behind what they do. God's working on me. He's helping me to tear down walls, but it's going to be a long process. All in all, life's good. I have my moments, but that's to be expected. I have a testimony now, but I know it will be greater in time!

Love, Marriage, and Children...Wow!!!

Ok, so here it is. I have been married for 8 years now and have 3 beautiful children. My question is; are you really ready to get married when you finally say 'I do?' I can honestly say that you should go through some type of counseling before you make that step.

My husband and I didn't go through any counseling and we are Christians. Our church requires you go to pre-marital counseling before you can get married. Back in 2001, this was not the case where we were attending church then. So, we did like most 21 year olds do. Start dating, 'fall in love,' and get married 10 months later because you think that you can't live without the other person.

Now, where am I? One can only guess. I won't disclose that information just yet but during these touch times in our economy, times are hard. WHat I am going to say now is that before you say 'I do,' be sure to go to a counselor first. Get everything out in the air first and then see if this is the kind of committment you want to make with this particular person.

To be continued...

Arrgh!!! This dag on job market...

I'm so tired of looking for a job. I apply for jobs almost everyday and still no one is biting. I edit my resume in order to make sure it is appealing, and still nothing! I can't believe there are so many people out there looking for jobs. It's so bad that you almost have to have a PhD in order to get a job as an Administrative Assistant.

I think I am registered on about 10-20 job sites and it's starting to get on my last nerve. I also go directly to the company websites and apply. NOTHING!!! Why is it that there are so many job postings on the web, but still not one is responding? The answer is that there are so many people out of work. The employers have a choice now. They can choose between a hamburger or steak.

Are you looking for work? Have you gotten any interviews? If you were one of the lucky ones to get an interview, did you get the job?

Is it really worth the trouble? HGTV Dream Home...

My answer to this question is yes. I have spent the last 48 days going to this site and entering to win the grand prize. The odds are really stacked against me, but you never know these days. I'm not losing anything if I don't win and if by chance I do, well that's a blog for another time.

The last day to enter this sweepstakes is Friday, February 19, 2010. If I were to win the Grand Prize (the HGTV Dream Home, the new GMC Terrain, and $500,000), I'd be in much better shape than I am today. Everyone, at some point, wished they could own their own home, own their vehicle and have $500,000 (minus Uncle Sam taking his portion of course). So, I have taken 2 minutes out of my day for the last 48 days in order to go to this website and enter for my chance to win.

What are my chances of winning? Who really knows? All I know is that if I did happen to get my name pulled, I'd definitely be moving to New Mexico. Would you even enter?